A month in OCS

It's been a month training in OCS. Has been experiencing cultural shock since the first day. The first 2weeks were really depressing, when we can't go home and they keep promising us tough training all day long.

It has been physically and mentally straining. Sometimes I don't even dare to sleep, without knowing what is going to happen tomorrow or the next moment. It's been tough, but they say things will be even much tougher as time goes by. My imagination demoralised myself at the moment.

I thought of giving up. We all have a choice to do so if we want to. Just to give up and leave the stressful strainous training can be the easiest way out. But looking at the photos on my personal notice board in bunk. I see my family and friends and the life I used to live, so comfortable and stress-free. But complacent.

Times are tough in OCS, but what's not tough in life? If I can endure through the 9months of training, I will have the stength and confidence to endure other things in life as well. Most essentially, God is always there with me. In the worst time, His glory shines.

Everyone is telling me to hang on. I'm telling myself that too. I think it may not be so tough for me after my appointment is passed over this coming week. It's always hard to lead peers. God's amazing grace has been bringing me through the past 1 month. 8 more months left, it's not very long. I'm gonna make it through and make my family proud.

So much things but so little time outside. I wish I could find a stable praying partner soon, if I have the time. No compromising, cause' I seriously need one.

God, I submit myself into Your hands. Through tough times or good times, provide me with the strength I need and the love & patience for others. Carry me through this time of my life, and let me become a person that You want me to be.