Section Field Camp

My section field camp is tomorrow, not feeling a single anxiety over it. My mind has been occupied by many other things during this few days. Too much for me to worry about what's going to come during the field camp. Whatever that's going to happen, I just pray that God will provide me with the sufficient strength and grace to go through it. No pain last forever, endure.

Have been worrying about what career I want to pursue in future (again). I don't know what's best and what's not. I want to become a professional soundman, but what's my first step supposed to be? I have a dream, but no practical plan. Yet.

Recently have been disturbed by the feeling of wanting to find a girlfriend. Haa! I can easily convince myself in this that all this will only come naturally and not when I want to find one. Or maybe I just wanted someone to talk to? That'll be selfish, I don't want to find a girl just because I need someone to talk to.

Coincidences often happens at the best time. Watched Stardust last night and it is a fairytale love story. Find it kinda nice. And there my feeling of wanting to find a girlfriend got an energy boost. Now I really I have one, haha. I know it's not that easy, and I don't hope it to be that easy either.

Oh well, time to book in. Feeling tired, and missing someone. Just hope this feeling can go away so that I can feel better. Field camp! Let's go.

Since I Found You - Ginuwine

A month in OCS

It's been a month training in OCS. Has been experiencing cultural shock since the first day. The first 2weeks were really depressing, when we can't go home and they keep promising us tough training all day long.

It has been physically and mentally straining. Sometimes I don't even dare to sleep, without knowing what is going to happen tomorrow or the next moment. It's been tough, but they say things will be even much tougher as time goes by. My imagination demoralised myself at the moment.

I thought of giving up. We all have a choice to do so if we want to. Just to give up and leave the stressful strainous training can be the easiest way out. But looking at the photos on my personal notice board in bunk. I see my family and friends and the life I used to live, so comfortable and stress-free. But complacent.

Times are tough in OCS, but what's not tough in life? If I can endure through the 9months of training, I will have the stength and confidence to endure other things in life as well. Most essentially, God is always there with me. In the worst time, His glory shines.

Everyone is telling me to hang on. I'm telling myself that too. I think it may not be so tough for me after my appointment is passed over this coming week. It's always hard to lead peers. God's amazing grace has been bringing me through the past 1 month. 8 more months left, it's not very long. I'm gonna make it through and make my family proud.

So much things but so little time outside. I wish I could find a stable praying partner soon, if I have the time. No compromising, cause' I seriously need one.

God, I submit myself into Your hands. Through tough times or good times, provide me with the strength I need and the love & patience for others. Carry me through this time of my life, and let me become a person that You want me to be.