The clouds are clear!

Hey guys, thanks for all your prayers. I am going to graduate!! The clouds are cleared!

I woke up this morning and received an sms from my lecturer, saying that she had settled the problem for me. I'm so glad to hear that from her, really thank God for all this.

Though it's been a troubling weekend over this matter, somehow I had peace in my heart. As I told some of my friends, I somehow feel that this thing will be settled. Being able to feel so peaceful, all honor belongs to God. If I had not depended on Him, trusted my life in Him, I would not have felt so peaceful.

It's just so amazing that from the beginning till the very end of my polytechnic life, I am able to have so many things to tell others which glorifies Him. It has been a blessed 3 years.=)

Thanks everyone again for your prayers and concerns. Glory to God=).

I need your prayers=)

Hey guys, I have just finally ended my 4 months internship program. In the process, I took an approved 4 days leave for taking part in Jesus Take the Wheel musical, 3.5 days of medical leave, and 2 days off requested by the school to go back school for my project exhibition.

So now i've got a problem, I exceeded the absence limit by 0.5 days. And I am facing a possibility of failing my internship and gotta take another semester of attachment. Alot of details and loopholes in the school's system has created alot of trouble.

I need prayers about this matter guys. I personally don't want to stay for another semester and spend another few thousand dollars of school fees. But I never know what does God wants.. So please pray for me an obedient heart if things really doesn't work out. Thank you.=)

May all that happens glorifies His almighty name.=)

Simply have Faith

I had a simple lunch with Naomi, Karen & Isaac today. It was wonderful, we had wonderful Korean food, wonderful accompanies, wonderful conversation.

We had a talk about having faith in the Lord. I realized we often take it too heavily, too deeply and making alot of assumptions of how faith should be like. Or sometimes we would just not have the faith...that was mainly because we were "having" faith by our own understanding.

Having faith is simpler than we think. The bible simply said, "Do not be afraid! Just have faith". I'm not saying that we can just leave our projects alone and have faith that things will turn out fine. We are to simply do our projects, without a tint of being scared. Because we all know that God upholds everything in our life.

And it is happening all around the world, that people are getting healed instantly! A man who was blind for all his life suddenly gets healed in a snap? Are we so blind to ignore all these that is happening? Our God is so amazingly amazing! If we still not have faith in Him, we are just one of those in the bible, standing a distance from Jesus even after seeing His miracles. We just need to believe.

Such things that are impossible in human are already so possible in God. What more about our daily life?Our projects, our health, our work and everything... An abundant life is not having the bad things away from us, but is to have faith in Him that all will be good.

Okay, I think I might end up going into details and long passage again. So the moral of this entry, is to simply have faith.

Question to ask: Are we really giving our all to God and simply have faith in Him? As in, totally?

My ITP coming to an End~

My internship is finally coming to an end! Felt quite accomplished to have finished some projects during my times in office! Let's list them down below:

My company's
- company website. visit www.wanhe.org

My friend's and church's
- Joeyee Watt's 3d animation project
- Ping Ping's vespa
- Church's Zha Gen cover design
- Serene's BF namecard
- Felicia's 3d animation project (left rendering)
- Vivian's Ogawa shop, 3d project
- Daniel's website (still not completed)

Yes! Thank God for this company that I could be a blessing to my friends! And because of being able to knock off on time and take leaves on some days, I was able to go:

- Jesus Take the Wheel Musical!
- Glowing meetings
- dance practises for Jesus Take the Wheel musical
- dinner with alot of friends!
- Sing practises
- home and rest!

For your information, I didn't choose this company for my internship. I was sent here. Really thank God for all the times I could use to serve Him and others during my ITP!=)

Count down on msn on the 25th Jan!

when we pray, we are humbled.

We need to be humble to pray. None of us go ask a favor of someone without humbling ourselves.

But be reminded, we do not humble down ourselves. It's the spirit of the Lord who humbles us when we come before Him. For we all know how great and mighty is He.

So it's a cycle: we are humble to pray to Him, and even humbled further while praying in Him. It is just another never-ending goodness of the Lord.=)

For the proud will be humbled...

Another long post-_-"

While walking to buy lunch, a flash of thought just came through my mind, and there are suddenly 2 points I needa learn through this time of trial. (so random aye?-_-")

1: I needa learn to live as a christian even in times of weakness.

I think that many of us naturally hope others to understand how we feel and let us be what we are for the moment. Personally, I feel that I should continue to reach out and understand more about how others feel. Even though I might need some love from others at the moment, but isn't Christ love in me already overflowing so much that there actually isn't room for more? Not saying that we shouldn't express our feelings to others, we can...but our focus is about loving others=).

If 2 people are down at the same time, and expect each other to understand how themselves feel, there will be no act of love or encouragement, just pure waiting for the other party to do something. So if we could learn to continue to give and love others even when we are feeling down, isn't it a wonderful picture whereby everyone is actually getting what they deeply needed?=)

2: God has given me enough strength to stand before He lets me fall.

Falling down is where we can learn and stand up again. As God watches over our every step, He has actually given us the grace and strength to go through the falling down times and stand up again.

Some of us may have dwelt deeper into the situation, feeling even sadder that we were still not standing up. Understandable, but since we are relying on God to stand up, we are going to do it in His time, not ours. We will stand up eventually in His grace. So I asked myself, "Why the panick? You haven't even finished your lesson!" (for those who are confused here, "lesson" meaning what God wants me to learn through the falling down process. haha..)

So i'm still learning to think more of others even when I'm feeling down; and not to worry at all as I am already blessed with His strength to withstand the fall down impact.=)

sometimes, God simply speaks to us through a flash of thought in our minds.

These few days~

My dear brothers and sisters in Christ, I will need your prayers and support. After a few days of resting at home, I suddenly realized I became more easily agitated or unhappy over very small matters.

I don't know what is going on, I really need God to give me strength to stand up from this weakness again. It is scary that I don't know how long will this last, and how my temper will affect those around me. So please forgive me if I ever get annoyed or seem unhappy for nothing! I'm so so weak right now...please pray for me. Thank you..

I need You, Jesus!

The 2nd time I dreamt of my friend...

This is the second time I dreamt of my passed away friend. Similar to the first, he was alive again for don't know what reason. I even slapped myself in the dream to ask whether I'm dreaming. Sadly, I was...

The sense of regret and guilt roamed over me once more. Although I've accepted the fact that he's in long sleep, but deep inside me, really hopes to see him alive again. Really hope for a second chance, to spread gospel to him.

I can't do anything but cry, and I pray to God for mercy over his soul.

Maybe I had become too reckless lately, and God again uses His most efficient way to light up the flame in my heart again. I want to stand up for Him. Live for Him. Die for Him. Absolutely anything that glorifies His name!

My friend, I pray that you are in peace and that God will have mercy over your soul...I miss you my friend..

I can't do anything anymore, but I know...God can.

The story behind 3 front teeth

I suddenly realized there are quite a number of people who have no idea about why I named my blog "3 front teeth". Therefore, I am gonna explain the story behind it.=) (might be quite long again,haha)

Once upon a time...well, right after my O's... I noticed myself being not loving enough towards my parents. I know I should, but I just don't feel the love I have for them or don't see love through my actions to them. And so, I prayed: "Lord, I know I love my parents. But I don't feel it in my heart. Teach me, Lord, to love them more." And about 3 months passed.

13th March 2004, Sunday. I went for overseas taekwondo training with my instructors to Kuala Lumpur. Although my mum had her worries, but I ignored it as I'm overwhelmed by my own anxiety. In a sparring section, I was picked to spar with a guy as tall as me. Guess what, he is Malaysian national youth champion, and SEA games youth champion. Oh my....and I didn't even know it.

And so, he kicked me at the back of my head making my helmet spin. I stopped to adjust, thinking that he would stop too. As I adjusted, his leg rammed into my face, causing one of my lower front teeth to come out completely, and other three bent inwards horribly. Oh, and a lump of lips were dangling too.=)

I wasn't angry at all. I had the mentality that I have to endure such consequences if I want to excel in Taekwondo. I keep thinking that I am a man, I can take this pain, and after I recover, I will return to Taekwondo again.

Back in Singapore, I still stood strong and felt no sadness in myself. Until one day, pastors, uncles and aunties from QBC came to visit me...and for the first time in my life, I saw my mum broke into tears. At that moment, my strong mentality collasped and I cried too. And actually a week later, 20th march, is my father's birthday too. I felt so regretful that this had happened. Now did I realised, how self-centered I was in the past.

Through this incident, I learnt to cherish my parents and promised not to break their hears again. Thank God for leading me through 3 months of hard recovery times, and giving me the time to pick up learning guitar to serve Him more.=)

Thank God that after 3 months, the gap between my teeth closed up, leaving 3 strong lower front teeth, and a story.

Oh man, another messy post-_-"

must see price first!

Through this few days of rain, I couldn't get down to lau pa sat to buy my favourite $3 char siew rice. So today I said I must eat char siew! Then I pass by a Hong Kong store selling Hong Kong food. Nice place, nice smell.....means nice char siew=).

So without 2nd thought, I go to the counter and ordered a char siew rice and a cold ying yuan. Stupid me that I should see the price first, it's $4.80 for the char siew rice and $2 for my ying yuan! Oh man! I spent $6.80 today when I'm planning to spend only $3! So expensive.....

But well, despite of the expensiveness, the food is good, the drink is good...and so today's lunch is good. =)

thank God for good food.

-1, 0, +1

I recently realized I always like to use an equation as an example to explain some theories. Which is "-1, 0, +1"!

I have been using it on alot of different aspects of theories, such as:

sinning against God: -1
being netural: 0
doing good: +1

in this equation, i'm able to see clearer that God wants +1 from christians, yet we are only at 0 most of the times. There is another way of using this equation too, such as:

dependant on parents: -1
getting more independant: 0
giving to our parents: +1

this equation sort of describes the growing stages of a person i guess. In -1, we are still young and depends on our parents; In 0, during our teenage years, we start to become more independant and do things ourselves. In +1, when we grew up (or maybe some of us don't=p), we learn to appreciate our parents and start giving to them.

This little equation teaches me to have a clearer view of many things, and the growing stages of a person (or maybe this only applies to myself-_-"). Most importantly, i thank God for the wisdom to understand more. And no matter how many +1 or -1 we have... He still loves us with His everlasting love.=)

Once again, thank God for giving us love=).

恩爱夫妻营

Many weeks ago, my parents went for 恩爱夫妻营. It was truly a blessing indeed, as somehow there were some difficulties for them to go. But God provides with our needs and this is the kind of time whereby God's glory is seen true the weakness of human.=)

After they came back, my father had a wonderful sharing with me about his experience. On that night, thoughts flooded into my head and I decided to type a passage out with some additions of my own thoughts. And now I decided to show it to you all!=) Sorry people that this is gonna be long and it's in chinese!hahaha..Bear with it, this one is really nice.=) (i think la=p)

"我爸妈昨天从<<恩爱夫妻营>> 回来, 真高兴他们能平安快乐地回到家里. 这营会是为了更新已婚夫妇之间的感情, 学习如何更爱对方. 是个相当有意义的营会! 今晚, 我爸爸跟我分享了许许多多的经历与得着...当初, 许多已去过这营会的夫妇们, 都提醒我爸爸带多一点纸巾. 他却不以为然. 因他一向来都能够摆出一副有自信, 坚强男人的模样. 他也大概想到会在这营会中做什么, 也预备好了心情和要说的话. 虽然他最后还是带了纸巾,却是为了妈妈而带的. 他以为已经预料了会有什么,但事实上...

首先,夫妻们要四目交投. 这就已经造成少许的不好意思. 然后,夫妻之间要有多一些含有"感激"素质的话. 就如我爸爸说的 :"这29年来, 谢谢妳为我和这个家付出了这么多. 也因为我, 妳必须去工作贴补家用. 虽然看似理所当然, 而妳又从来没有发过任何怨言, 依然默默地在我身边支持我. 多谢妳." 这么简单又平凡的一句话, 给这对度过29年婚姻的夫妇, 开启了封闭已久的心门. 这门叫作 "心底最深的感情".

然后, 双方要有次序地, 诚实地"认罪". 一向来都是男人带头, 所以就以男人先开始讲. 而当一方在认罪的时候, 另一方只能耐心聆听, 不能追究. 因为过去的事就算了, 只要你爱的人最终肯坦白说声"对不起", 一切都不再重要了. 在这时刻, 男人都必须放下自己的尊严, 放弃自己最刚强的一面...并以最诚实的心, 说出积在心中的内疚与感叹. 在说的过程中, 个人的心中都百感交集. 说的人面对着感情的"释放", 也因为发现自己如何伤害了自己最爱的人而心酸. 顿时之间, 室内弥漫着带有后悔的哭泣声. 纵然周围都坐着其他的夫妇, 也无所谓了. 隐藏了29年的感情, 足够为二人创造出一个只属于他们的空间,只有彼此的世界. 许多人长久以来寻求的浪漫, 原来是如此的.

男人流着眼泪道歉时, 深爱的女人看着他. 轻轻的说了一句: "不用紧, 我原谅你. 我爱你."
室内的气氛似乎到达最高峰时, 爱情如魔术般地又把一切带上更高一层. 简短的一句话, 充满了29年的爱与接纳. 看到一个如此爱自己的人, 男人又幸福又内疚, 沉浸在喜与悲的哭泣声之中.

29年的婚姻, 3天内被更新了. 曾经听说一句话 "An everlasting relationship is to fall in love with the person over and over again."

黑仔"

Thank you Lord for giving us love.

Bow our hearts~

Today we had a small discussion together as a fellowship. And before we had our starting prayer, Li'er said "Let's bow our hearts..". Everyone laughed, because she originally wanted to say "Let's bow our heads." But this thought, flashed across my mind....

Bowing of our heads, is a sign of humbling ourselves, reverence and respect the our God. And since we are praying with our hearts, humbling our hearts before our Lord is really very important. As prayers change our hearts, we need to be humble to be changed by the Lord. Therefore, instead of just bowing heads, bowing of our hearts in front of the Lord is so far more important.=)

may we learn to bow our hearts before God in prayers.=)

A short post~

I think I should start writing some short posts for the convenient of my friends who are reading my blog, haha=p.

Today was great, we recorded 6 songs in one day! Before I stepped into the studio, I actually stood outside to pray about this recording. Partly I was worried I will become a burden for my friends in the recording, those who know me well knows why. But more importantly, really pray that this recording can spread the words of God and touch more souls. And the songs will be broadcasting on radio in Indonesia! So it's gonna be cool how God has blessed us with technology to serve His people overseas.

In the end the recording went on greatly! Even though we had faults here and there along the way, but really can see the grace of the Lord working in us. I'm not sure about the others, but for me, this is my first time being successful in playing the guitar or singing for recording songs. And it all happened simply because I prayed this time=). Humbling oneself to rely on the Lord shall gain strength!

Hope this one not consider long, actually still got more to say. Oh well, pray that this short entry be a reminder to myself and others too!=)

Faith crisis.

I have been facing faith crisis for the past 2 days, couldn't concentrate in praying or reading the Lord's words, or hearing the Father's voice. The emotions and thoughts were mainly pointing towards myself, and not focusing my life upon Jesus. Have been very lost and trying to find my way back, and feel like how i felt before when my life was so filled with God's grace. Not that God's grace is not filling my life now, just that I didn't turn and notice it with me. After having a God blessed lunch with Naomi, I'm willing to pick up myself again. I mean, willing to let the Lord pick me up. Now that I realize I shouldn't be looking back and hoping to be like last time, cause' I will never grow in that way. I should depend on the Lord and move forward. That will be the way that I grow in Him through the good and bad.

A funny thought just came across. Imagine a person fell down on the floor. And while the person is on the floor, he keep thinking of going back to when he was walking before the fall. But that will never happen, because no one can dive upwards and backwards right? The only way to walk again, is to move forward and stand up! If not he will just continue to lie flat on the floor. I think that could relate to our spiritual life too.

I keep thinking of being the person that God wants me to be, and end up I am actually living a life that I thought God wants me to be. Not really exactly what He wanted. I have always been listening and reading His words, and thinking, "oh, I shall live a life like that, and God will be so happy and will keep on blessing me with His words." I realised that was only partly true. Cause' no matter I live a life that pleases Him anot, He will still love me as I am and blesses me with an abundunt life.

Thank God for simply giving me the sudden feeling of asking this sister of Christ out for lunch, and through her, He told me how much He had loved me and will love me for eternity. Now that I know clearer, every single big or small things in life, happens in a way that God blesses us.

Looking back, I suddenly got a new LG chocolate phone for free, I made alot of superb friends in the past few weeks, I got a new hp pouch and a strip hanging there for Christmas exchange...so many many things that God had blessed me with, yet I only focused on what I should do for the Lord and neglected the importance of counting my blessings and give thanks to Him.

While I wasn't giving thanks to Him, I simply take all the things that were given to me as if life is about give and take. Leaving out the thought that there is one great One above blessing us all with such things. God is a all rounded God. He blesses us with His words, with people around us, with materials and breathe for everyday. With regards to no matter how we much we did for Him, He still loves and blesses us everyday.

My emotions simply poured out as I'm typing. Find this entry very messy and repetitive everywhere. But this is currently how I feel and what I wished to say, there is a reason why I feel this way and typed this way today. God has His plans in everything, including my weakness in typing an entry today.=)

Thank you Lord for bringing back from the wild~

Thanksgiving 2006 + Year 2007!

It was 31st of December 2006, a night of Thanksgiving in church. It was only after an hour of sharings, then I prayed and walked up to the front of the auditorium and gave my thanks to the Lord.=) I've shared about my friend, Low Choon Yang, who passed away in October 2006. It was a lesson for me to learn, the urgency of spreading gospel to my friends before they pass away like him. I had so much so much that I wanna share with him but there were no more chances. I just wanna write it down here and I pray that God will deliver the message of my heart to this dear friend of mine...

"I've shared about you my friend. I tried to hold back my tears but I failed. I recalled the times we shared and teared together, how so regretful am I to have not share about Jesus with you. I still feel guilty as I really don't know where will God let you be, I pray that you would forgive me. Thank you for being a friend in my life, your good natures woke my christian values up alot of times without you actually knowing. Really thank God for you. I'll never forget you and the lessons that I learnt which cost a life. I pray that God will have mercy on your soul, though I know God has His rules and will not change for anyone. but I still do pray so....I miss you my friend, may God bless your soul."

It was a then a great count down in church, with everyone going crazy and jumping around and singing praises to the Lord. Imagine we are going to be like that in heaven everyday next time. Haha....That'll be so cool. Thank God for a wonderful united church=)

And it's 2007!! Came back home from Sunny's house, not tired at all and planning to go stay over again to have a real good chat this night. While waiting for the night to come, I made a prayer and God is already doing miracles. I wrote a new song! Though it's only the notes and some words here and there, but that is so amazing! I had no music foundation yet God's grace have been flowing through me. It's a wonderful experience and I pray that this song can bless everyone around in all ways that God wants it to be=). Gonna let maybe Zhiyang or Lydia to brush it up a little i guess, and see how will the whole song sounds like. This is so exciting! Thank you Lord for giving us music=).

- Meaning of a song is in the words, not the tune. But the tune brightens up the spirit.